When I ask you to listen to me
and you start giving me advice,
you have not done what I asked.

When I ask you to listen to me
and you begin to tell me why I shouldn't feel that way,
you are trampling on my feelings.

When I ask you to listen to me
and you feel you have to do something
to solve my problem,
you have failed me, strange as that may seem.

Listen!
All I ask is that you listen.
Don't talk or do - just hear me.
Advice is cheap - 20 cents will get you both
Dear Abby and Billy Graham in the same newspaper.
And I can do for myself; I am not helpless.
Maybe discouraged and faltering, but not helpless.

When you do something for me that I can
and need to do for myself,
you contribute to my fear and inadequacy.
But when you accept as a simple fact
that I feel what I feel, no matter how irrational,
then I can stop trying to convince you
and get about this business of understanding
what's behind this irrational feeling.
And when that's clear, the answers are obvious
and I don't need advice.
Irrational feelings make sense
when we understand what's behind them.

Perhaps that's why prayer works - sometimes -
for some people, because God is mute.
and he doesn't give advice or try to fix things.
God just listens and lets you work it out for yourself.

So please listen, and just hear me.
And if you want to talk,
wait a minute for your turn,
and I will listen to you.

-Anonymous


My sense of feelings, of realization, is a terrible thing to try to sort through. One of my friends helped me figure this out in a rather...interesting conversation today.
Yet no one listens to my senseless ramblings so I should just stop typing things on this journal.
No one cares.
You say you do, a lot of my friends do, yet no one takes a chance to listen to me. To really listen.
I'm not all butterflies and rainbows like I make everyone think.
I'm actually able to hide how I feel again behind a smile and being hyper for the sake of my old and new-found friends.
So this will probably be the last journal I write for a while,maybe I'll write again in the future, I'm not sure. All I'm sure about is right now it's an utter waste of time. None of you care anyway.

I'll still come on to roleplay if you answer it.
I may post some deviations if I get the time.

Goodbye.

-Nikki

This be a list of stuffez. If you want to do a trade or request something then you can tell me and I'll stick it up here. I'll only take five at a time

Trade:

1. --Almost done
2. --Done
3.
4.
5.


Request:
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.


Kiriban:
14K:
15K:
16K:

The following I will trade/take for request:
Stamp you want done of whatever
Poetry/Story
Animated emoticon (I can TRY to do characters with a premade icon I find here. ^^)
Photomanipulation



Rules for Trades:

I'm more likely to do a trade with you than a request. I'll take requests of course, but trades are my first priority. :3

1. Please refrain from asking for "sparkle animals". I can't photomanipulate animals very well, and I can only do like a scarf. XD Your animal can be whatever color it is I don't mind that, just no super duper bows and crazy hair...I can't do that well yet. ^^'
2. I ask in return what you want. If you want an animated photomanip, then you have to give me an animated whatever it is you're wanting to do. My character blinking or wagging their tail will do. XD
If you want an animated but you don't have an animated program, I'd recommend what I use: Iaza iaza.com (completely free to use. ^.^) And if you don't want to do it because that takes a while with Iaza, then we can work something out. I'm not killer strict and I wont deny your trade if you want an animated thing but wont give me animated back. XD
3. You can do whatever character of mine you want. I'm working on references, but until I find another reference sheet that looks decent (because the person I was using for like Pazzie changed accounts. DX) you may just have to ask for a description of them.
4. If you want to do a human character, feel free! I have those too, they just aren't my popular roleplay characters so I rarely make references for them. ^^'
5. Be descriptive on what you want! I need to know what you'd like to have!
6. Please be careful what you request if you're under 18 and tell me if you want to see it. I tend to put mature content on gorey pictures and it would be horrible if you couldn't view it. ^^' I usually just put a "View Anyway" option, but just be warned that I may have to put for 18+ (though I doubt this is just a precaution for you)
7. You don't have to be this amazing artist for a trade. I will take any and everything. Even writing! Writing to me is worthy of a photomanipulation or another piece of writing. :3
8. If you're requesting writing for your end of the deal, I'm not big on fanfics so I may deny that. ^^'' But anything else feel free to have me write! :3

Rules for Requests:
If you want to request something, be certain you know that it may take a while for you to get your request. Maybe not though, depending on if I feel like doing your idea a whole lot. ;3

1. Please refrain from requesting "sparkle animals". I can't photomanipulate animals very well, and I can only do like a scarf. XD Your animal can be whatever color it is I don't mind that, just no super duper bows and crazy hair...I can't do that well yet. ^^'
2. Please don't request some big elaborate picture. If you want something big and elaborate, then trade with me. I'm not going to do all this effort for you a request when you're capable of doing something for me. :3
3. Be descriptive. I need to know what you'd like!
4. Please be careful what you request if you're under 18 and tell me if you want to see it. I tend to put mature content on gorey pictures and it would be horrible if you couldn't view it. ^^' I usually just put a "View Anyway" option, but just be warned that I may have to put for 18+ (though I doubt this is just a precaution for you)
5. If you're requesting writing for your end of the deal, I'm not big on fanfics so I may deny that. ^^'' But anything else feel free to have me write! :3


Rules for Kiribans:
These will be after trades but before requests. This is just going to be a mixed thing. Again if your idea sounds cool, I'm all for it. :3

1. You don't have to be right on. Take Taa for example. She didn't catch my 14,000th pageview, but since no one showed me or gave me their word that they caught the 14K she turned in 14,004. She was the closest that turned it in, so she got the kiriban. :3
2. The same of sparkle animals apply here. ^^
3. Other rules listed above in request apply. :3

I know it seems like a lot. ^^' But I'm not really all that strict. XD






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